Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Greenest Grass

First of all, a hearty congrats to John Roberson, who is now engaged!

As said early, today I was home alone with no set schedule. Now, when you have such a wide expanse of free time like that, you get to thinking. Good process, variable results. I've been in Japan for nearly two weeks now, crashing into novel things one moment after another. But now a routine is starting to sink in and I have noted a few things I greatly dislike (relating to spiritual atrophy and lack of physical independence and autonomy). Things that seem quite harmful. So, after turning around a few things in my noggin, I prepared a little mental speech:

"Uncle and Aunt, I am really grateful for your hospitality in letting me stay at your house and work for you. However, I feel like 7 weeks is much too long and I plan on returning two weeks earlier instead. Hope that doesn't crunch your plans or anything.."

You see, hearing tale after tale about my friends' adventures abroad, and fantastic notions began to grow and swell in my mind about life in foreign countries. Nothing seemed more necessary than an escape from this boring, cooped- up, old life in the States. Not that I find Japan distasteful, but I've finally realized something about physically running away from restlessness and boredom to another country: it doesn't work that way. People live normal lives everywhere. It is truly a matter of perspective. Likewise, the world is largely the same everywhere. So, my uninformed ideas were quickly replaced by facts of reality. As a result, thinking I had some good reasons on my side, I inquired to my parents about going home earlier, believing that they would easily comply. Wrong, so wrong! I mean, Kristi Kaiser got the 'OK' from her parents to leave Spain earlier on July 10th, so I thought I'd give it a shot. My mother's explanation of her negative, but firm response: You have to stick to the commitments you make. This is called reality. Novelty fades, but you have to keep on going if you ever want to succeed. Of course, Keke stuck with Smart Start all last semester, even though it wasn't always sweet roses and fluffy clouds every day. However, I got the feeling that she really grew to love those kids and also, she couldn't just quit the job whenever. Despite all that, I think she learned a lot from it.

So. One must not always be running away from difficulties? I really thought I knew that already. But then again, it irks me that one day after marriage I'll be tired of my future husband, love of my life. Life does not consist one thrill after another, but hopefully, a regular rhythm of stability. Tell me that once more. Ah, reality strikes again. Well, because this is so, and I don't want to swallow a bitter pill in a larger circumstance, I'll try to make the most of my time here and switch gears from "passive" to "proactive." Sounds self- help- ish, but it is a move that must be made.

Older people: they're often wiser than you.
On with life!

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

aww franny, i hope you do find something to make your time there more exciting. does kk not like spain or something? is she having a bad time? i looked at her facebook pics. they looked fun. the beach thebeach!!
love
mary

Anonymous said...

angelpie. i liked talking to you. and i like you.
hook up the syklppeszx, really just go into my account i think and say add contact. its so very simple. happy azzizan days, i had quite a good barcy one. musicalfestival for frees all over town! plus i found the best of all times museum gift store andddddd recordstore. dont cry, i love you. kk.

Anonymous said...

angelpie. i liked talking to you. and i like you.
hook up the syklppeszx, really just go into my account i think and say add contact. its so very simple. happy azzizan days, i had quite a good barcy one. musicalfestival for frees all over town! plus i found the best of all times museum gift store andddddd recordstore. dont cry, i love you. kk.

Anonymous said...

omhhgg so sorry for repeatery

Anonymous said...

from kristi kaiser.

Sarah Hazel said...

Life IS all about plodding through tough circumstances. Grace is when you do it well.

marysaurus said...

thankyou love for the postcard. i cannot remember if i already commented on another post thanking you, so i am going to do it again. lovelove

van said...

hey Frances,
from my experience, its ALWAYS shitty the first few weeks and only starts to get a lot better one or two weeks before you leave the place so hang in there, at least you're staying with family and not in the middle of nowhere with no friends or family. hope alls good in japan!